uncertainty

Eventually, there is only one test left for this semester. Time flies...The end of the tests signify the coming of the final examination. Thus, it's time to prepare for final examination already. No more reason for me to escape from doing revision because almost all the tasks given are finished. Let's apply the theory of the system. The input that I should be putting in is my revision and the output is the result and my vacation after the examination. Mei Guan, please do whatever you are required to do. Don't think too much because we do not know what will happen the next. Just do not put too much hope on something or you will be disappointed if it is not realized. It is not necessary that what you think is true although people always want their dreams to be true.
It seems like I always put the title not according to the content I have written. Just ignore~

UCCM 2013

Currently, I am joining UTAR convocation carnival as a helper. There were 2 briefings before the launching of the event. Both of the briefings were conducted at night in the campus. Luckily, I didn't have to cycle to the campus to attend the briefing session. Thank you Pueipuei's friend and the manager of my department for fetching me to the campus. I was so thankful to them. All the committee and crew members are all energetic especially the committee. I can see how hard they work for this event. It is not easy to organize an event. Many problems you will encounter during the event and you must know how to settle it. Most of them are PR or Marketing students. That's why not surprising that they like to join event. I really hope that I will be one of the committee in the future event. Today is the 1st day of the carnival so not much people there and it seems like I didn't do anything. We just walked around and helped the vendors if they needed help. I am not on duty tomorrow since I had informed them that I have test. How good are they! So, I will be on duty on Sunday. Hopefully I can offer my help to most of the people.

Tomorrow will be my second QT II test. I will try my best to do it. I think it is not very difficult as compared those subjects for Actuarial Science course since we don't need to prove any formula. We just require to follow the steps to solve the question. Indeed, it is not easy for you to prove something. For the formula, perhaps you still have some steps to follow and then prove it. Yet, how about that if you want to verify something but there is no such steps for you to follow. It's really difficult. So, if you cannot prove it, just let the answer tell you how to prove it...

week 9 comes to the end...

Must believe that next week is gonna be better than this week :)

What's the fact?

Let's recall about the MUET examination last week. The MCQ questions were not so easy to answer. There were 3 or 4 options for you to choose. Yet, you feel like very difficult to choose a correct the answer because all answers given were looked similar. You are in dilemma in choosing the answer. What do you think we will be in such situation? This is because we are uncertain about the correct answer. You will start to think what if the answer you choose is wrong. All in all, people often feel uncomfortable whenever there is uncertainty.

There are few songs that I like the most currently. One of them is "心里的孩子” by 梁文音。The lyrics inside is how do I feel currently.

破灭的美梦 一个又一个

虽然心很痛却还是微笑着

别人总爱说 你已长大了

不能待在幻想里面活着

学会化妆 去遮掩些什么

学会先沉默 再察言观色

本来的我呢 快不记得

我害怕我会习惯不快乐

在心里 的孩子 扮大人 的样子

一开始 有意思 后来双眼总潮湿

在心里 的孩子 盼谁来 讲故事

让不安失望 暂时静止

雷雨不来 又哪有彩虹呢

能自我安慰 是必修的课

不确定我是 变得随和

或累得慢慢放弃了原则

(To Chorus 1)

在心里 的孩子 后悔曾 很固执

太好奇 许多事 不顾后果的尝试

在心里 的孩子 常祈祷 有天使

借一双翅膀 逃离现实

不爱看自己 哭的样子

12/3/13

I feel that I have more to share during my busying time because of happening of many incidents. Actually, my Monday is fully occupied with classes and yoga weekly class. I feel like I spend the whole day in campus! Yesterday even worst because I had to attend the convocation carnival meeting at 830pm. It ended at 1130pm. OMG! I can't fall asleep easily after 11pm indeed. I know that some students even worst than me. I heard they said that they had the class early in the morning at 8am and they still hadn't go back until 1130pm. That means they spent more than 15 hours in the campus! How suffer is it! After attended the briefing session, I think that I am really admire those who are very active in organizing events! There's a committee never get below than "president list" according to the other committee. Wow~
I went to yoga class for 2nd session yesterday but then I was not really enjoy it because the posture was too difficult to do. How can the trainer expect us, the new comers to do it! It needs time to go that kind of level! Finally, I ended up with looking others to do and I felt like I was doing nothing. I can do it if I practice it more! It is possible!
Today was my 1st presentation in this semester! Actually, I am not that satisfied with it because my group members broke their promises again and again! Could you be responsible a bit? Do not do the last minute work, please! I reminded you again and again and yet you don't even do it eventually! Maybe you think that this subject is not so important to you but then you should be responsible to it if you feel that you are part of our group. It's okay. Let the past be the past. As one of the song mentions "只有笨蛋才生气那么久“。。。Fine, I shouldn't allow others to control my mood!
Please be serious, Mei Guan. Now, it's already week 9!

The lessons I learnt

Today is Sunday! Let's cheer for it!
I have done with my last mission in this week. I had attended the soft skill training program. Frankly speaking, it was a bit disappointed. It was not that interesting anyway. At first, it did give me an impression that it would be very interesting. Yet, it was getting more and more bored. First, we were required to sit face-to-face to another person. Then, we needed to tell a lie about ourselves. It was not easy to tell something no truth about you because it takes time for you to think. After we told a lie to one person, we continued to tell a lie to another person. At the end, I am FE & MK student at the same time. haha...Quite fun...After that, we formed our group. I found out that the trainer always form a new group for us to avoid you sitting together with your friends. So, you better don't sit together with your friends when you attend this kind of training. Actually, there were only 2 main activities for today. First was about the case study. We took turn to share our opinion. Again, I felt that my speaking skill still need to be improved when I saw those who can speak really well. The second activity was the bingo game. I did not participate in it because I was selected to be the facilitator. So, I just observed others to play. You guess how many rounds we played? It was about 8 rounds. It was getting more and more bored towards the end. The meaning conveyed by the trainer was really difficult to catch. Anyway, I know that he just wanted to tell us how realistic this world this especially when we come out to work. You will find that student's life is much more enjoyable. Nothing much  require you to consider but then you have a lot of factors to consider when you are in the workplace. This world is very competitive, you must get more achievements and rewards in order for you to compete successfully against others. Yet, the trainer also told us the only solution in order to escape from this competition. His way is also the way I can think of. What do you guess? Yes. Just marry a rich guy/woman. If not, you cannot run away from this competition.
Another lesson I have learnt today is you can try to solve your problem by using google search engine. It is useful indeed where you can clear your doubt. Anything you are not sure, you can just key in the keyword and then the solution will come out. So great!
Three tasks for next week include 1 presentation, 1 test and helper for convocation carnival. Gambateh!

9/3 Saturday

Finally and finally....I have done with my MUET tests. 3 papers per day is really a lot! Anyway, I have tried my best to answer. No matter how the result is, I should accept it. I still to wait for a long time to get the result. You may say that I just finished the examination and want to get the result in 1 day. It requires patience when you are waiting for something.
How's my schedule for tomorrow? Tomorrow should be an enjoyable day and throw all my tasks away first. I will be attending another soft skill program. It seems like I talk about this program few times already and yet I haven't attend it. Oh yeah! It's tomorrow! Hopefully it will not be bored and I attend the program alone without accompanied by anyone. So?! What to do? Just wait and see!
Actually, I am quite free next week because I have only one small presentation and one test. However, I have registered as helper for convocation carnival. Hopefully I will enjoy it and won't ruin my regular period of study.
Today is 9/3. The reverse of it is my birthday! Oh oh...Still have half year to go....I am still 19 years old! Young person...haha

3 tasks completed!

Finally, I have finished 3 tests in this week. However, I have another extra test tomorrow. That's MUET written test, followed by USSDC program on Sunday. What a hectic week! The test just now was quite okay but then there's one question which I didn't know what it expected us to write. Thus, I can't get full mark for this second test. Never mind, it's still okay.

Today, I went to the FGO to get my certificate for the examination of last semester. I don't know whether I can get it for the examination of this semester or not. Indeed, the certificate is my motivation to continue my hard work for me to get it continuously. Hopefully, I manage to do it.

I always break my own record in Kampar. Today, I break another record again! I cycled to and back for total of 6 times (3 times go & 3 times back). OMG!!! Great exercise for today!

The most excited one was I cycled back to hostel after the test. The scene was so great! Kampar is so so so beautiful! I never deny it after I came here to study. The sky is so beautiful, the lakeside is so beautiful, the hostels are so beautiful! Sorry that I just can describe it by using the word "beautiful" because it is difficult for me to find the bombastic word to describe something. Basically, there are only 2 situation you will face when you come out from the examination hall. One is nothing happens and you can cycle back so you can enjoy the beautiful scene. Another one is that it is raining so you have to take bus and you feel so tired inside the bus after examination. I prefer the first one! You feel relief after the end of the examination. Oh yeah!